Today is terrible, fucking terrible. FML, that's what i can only say. At first, mood damn good. Played tetris all the way. Till like 6pm, everything changes. Dad called and said crystal cannot come. Of course, i'm pissed off and just use a angry tone and say 'okok' and kup. Like seriously, i hate it whenever it's like that.
Gaara and crystal is my BEST cousin, they are just like my blood siblings. Being there when i need them. Gaara dote on me best. Cook maggie for me when i'm hungry, find ways to bring me out and many others. He is just like my brother, i love him alot. But my parents just dislike them. One of it is because of their attitude, another one is because of their studies. Yeah, i know, they aren't those types that you like. But please, i'm old enough to think. I know whats right, whats wrong. Why must you guys interfere?! I know, you guys do that for my own good. But, have you all even think of my feelings? I bear with you guys with those unreasonable stuff. Now, another one pop out. Like wtf, spare a thought for me, CAN?! My life is miserable enough -'-
Went in to the bathroom, sat there and cry my heart out. Really, i'm very sad, very depressed ): Things always go like that, sometimes, i wonder why am i born into this world. Since i seems like a burden for you guys, in the start, abort me away. Let me not exist in this world, ain't it better? Sighhh, speechless yo.
After i came out from my bathroom, daddy gave me a lecture. Shout here shout there, bang here bang there with a cane. I wonder ' If hitting me makes you better, i give you hit. Till die, i dont mind k ' Sigh, tears keep on drip and drip and drip. Machiam running tap, i cannot stop no matter how hard i tried. FUCKFUCK -'- Finally, now i felt better, real better.
Hunk, if you are seeing this, i wanna thank you for those words you said and encouragement. You make me feel better, let me have someone to talk to. Really, thanks alot (: Piggy owe you one k. Thanks for being so awesome
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