It's friday today and yeah, it is the last weekday for the school and i'm loving it. Cause more sleep you see. But things dont go right today, everything went upside down after school. Sigh, why is it like that? Torturing me?!
Why did you change so much? Can you tell me? I'm really curious but i dont have the guts to ask. Sometimes, i really want you to know i felt. Im simple, all i want is to remain like last year, buddies, is it really so hard? After one week, i realised that me and you distance so much and how much you have change to a person i dont used to know anymore..
I really miss the old you, when can you become back like last time? I have already given up, cause i know you have a crush on someone else plus me and you is a total hopeless. I dont need you to feel bad, or maybe you aint or whatever. Please, i dont want to continue in this kind of state for the whole year. It's really miserable. Shed so much tears and i still not feeling any better and that seriously sucks. I hope you understands how i feel.
Sometimes whenever i'm down, i really really hope that someone can come and console me, spend some effort to cheer me up and maybe a hug. But today, like no one. Just only Janissa and tammy heart to heart talk only. Hunk called too. But after the call, tears drip down again. Okay, i know. I seems like a crybaby, but i really cannot take it. It's too hard to accept the fact that a best buddy which i have one year, have changed so much after the two solid months of holiday..
God is really fooling me around. What a great month or maybe year huh. -'- Everything just became like that and i really got stuck. Fuck life, really. I hope me and you will be like buddies like last time again, and nothing else will happen. Please make it come through.......
